I’m a person trying to find his (or her) way through life. I have always considered myself a person who is in search of a deeper meaning to life than to accept what I have always been told. Although, I spent the majority of my life doing what I have been told and living up to others’ expectations of myself, I recognize that there has always been a flame inside of me to question, to seek, and to understand the world around me. I am curious about people, I am curious about events, I am curious about the lives of others. I feel like my various experiences mold me and create in me a new way of looking at life.
I have a personality that borders on inappropriate, but also cares for those that I meet. I notice that I tend to be an overly trusting person, and my desire to be kind to others has led me to neglect my own self-care. I have struggled with various things in life – some traumatic, some not – but life’s struggles tend to be dealt with on an individual perspective. What hurts me, may not hurt you and what makes me happy, may not make you happy, but I enjoy conversation about so many things.
Happiness? Hmm… I think this is a concept that has a way of escaping my grasp. I suffer from depression at times, as well as anxiety, and I strive for a more positive life and a more positive outlook. But there are things that hinder this and I have to be vigilant to maintain the pursuit of happiness. I will explore these things.
I will offer a caveat: This is not my first blog on WordPress. I have had two others (Assentively Yours and Acquiesently Yours), that I have deleted in a fit of self-anger and depression. I have had other blogs on other sites, as well. And I always end up angry with myself for letting things go and refusing to acknowledge them as real. I always do it at a time when I feel like my life is going to change for the positive and I can grab the bull by the horns and ride it out, but then something happens to tell me that I was wrong to try and ignore these things that I have “deleted” – they may not exist on WordPress anymore, but it is impossible to erase them from my mind.
So, for those of you that were connected to me before, please accept my apology and I welcome your follow again. For those of you new to my blog, buckle up and enjoy the ride!
All of the writing on this blog originates from my mind; sometimes I use information from other sources that help me make a point, but I intend no plagiarism and will gladly remove anything requested.