About a Tarnished Soul

I’m a person trying to find his (or her) way through life.  I have always considered myself a person who is in search of a deeper meaning to life than to accept what I have always been told.  Although, I spent the majority of my life doing what I have been told and living up to others’ expectations of myself, I recognize that there has always been a flame inside of me to question, to seek, and to understand the world around me.  I am curious about people, I am curious about events, I am curious about the lives of others. I feel like my various experiences mold me and create in me a new way of looking at life.

I have a personality that borders on inappropriate, but also cares for those that I meet.  I notice that I tend to be an overly trusting person, and my desire to be kind to others has led me to neglect my own self-care. I have struggled with various things in life – some traumatic, some not – but life’s struggles tend to be dealt with on an individual perspective. What hurts me, may not hurt you and what makes me happy, may not make you happy, but I enjoy conversation about so many things.

Happiness?  Hmm… I think this is a concept that has a way of escaping my grasp.  I suffer from depression at times, as well as anxiety, and I strive for a more positive life and a more positive outlook.  But there are things that hinder this and I have to be vigilant to maintain the pursuit of happiness.  I will explore these things.

I will offer a caveat: This is not my first blog on WordPress.  I have had two others (Assentively Yours and Acquiesently Yours), that I have deleted in a fit of self-anger and depression.  I have had other blogs on other sites, as well.  And I always end up angry with myself for letting things go and refusing to acknowledge them as real.  I always do it at a time when I feel like my life is going to change for the positive and I can grab the bull by the horns and ride it out, but then something happens to tell me that I was wrong to try and ignore these things that I have “deleted” – they may not exist on WordPress anymore, but it is impossible to erase them from my mind.

So, for those of you that were connected to me before, please accept my apology and I welcome your follow again.  For those of you new to my blog, buckle up and enjoy the ride!

(Contact: tarnishedsoul72@gmail.com)

All of the writing on this blog originates from my mind; sometimes I use information from other sources that help me make a point, but I intend no plagiarism and will gladly remove anything requested.

78 thoughts on “About a Tarnished Soul”

  1. Glad to follow along other peoples journeys. And I always hope I can share some insight or be a sounding board for those that are struggling. If nothing else, a laugh at least! Life is a funny, chaotic, boring, terrifying thing….but I am so thankful to be able to navigate it. How about you?

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  2. Hi! Glad you found me today. I love that photo up there; it’s gorgeous! I will be poking around to look at more of your writings, but for now will say have a great time in Europe and thanks for the follow as well. I am glad you enjoyed my post about body image. Let’s bust those stereotypes open! 🙂

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      1. That is entirely my goal. If you saw my Merle page, you’ll get a hint why. I have no room for negativity or treating others poorly. None. I will discuss events that have happened to me, but I always try to conclude with the positive, and have tried to learn from them. Your last sentence is the best compliment! Thank you again. ❤

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          1. I just got a pair of Hoka boots that we were told provide the best cush. Seems I have ample padding in some areas but lack it in others. Ha! They are great, so far. Have I mentioned I love hiking as well? 😉

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            1. Yes, I think you might have mentioned that. Have you posts about some of the places you have hiked? I’ll have to go check them out. I don’t post a lot of the pictures I take because I kinda like my anonymity online and I display most of my hiking pictures on Facebook for everyone I know to see.

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  3. Hello. I’ve only read your about page so far, but I already feel that we have very much in common… particularly what you’ve written in the “Happiness” paragraph and the one preceding. I look forward to reading more.

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  4. I’m glad to meet you! Thanks to Lennon for the introduction. I will have to spend some time exploring but based on your bio, I’m sure I will relate to your experience and your writing. 🙂

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    1. Hi there! Yes, Lennon is pretty awesome. Thank you so much for stopping by. I admit, I’ve looked at your blog, before now, but based on the “Dr.” In your title I am quite certain I would be intimidated by your intellect. But, like I have been trying to explore within myself, maybe I need to step outside of myself, huh?

      Thank you, again!🌸

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      1. You know what? That’s not the first time I’ve heard that about the”Dr.” In fact I recently removed it from the way my name appears when I comment. I sooooo don’t want you to feel intimidated, I am not like that at all. I’m actually kind of a huge nerd… But if that doesn’t bother you, t’m sure we will enjoy getting to know each other! 😀

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        1. <—-major nerd! I was the kid in school that got a telescope for Christmas and spent my Friday nights looking at stars instead of going socializing. Getting anything less than a "B" in school irritated me. I read chemistry books for fun.
          I know nerd, quite well. 🙂

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              1. I get that.. My interests vary so widely that I have trouble concentrating on just one thing. It’s a miracle I stuck with one field of study long enough to finish. And even that is a second career. I originally graduated with a business degree…

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    1. Well, my likes are honest. You have posted some interesting things, and I feel blessed to be a part of reading your blog.
      And I appreciate your compliments and the beautifully kind things you say to me. 🙂 ❤ Feel free to comment anytime!

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  5. You are so real. As I was reading, it dawned me that I used to trust too often too easily and then I went through a SITUATION. Yes, It was that huge. I am interested in reading your blog. Please do not delete this one.

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    1. Thank you for commenting, I truly appreciate it. Seeing your profile, and understanding that you might have a sense of morality that I do not, I hope I do not offend you, in any way. There are things that I discuss, sometimes, that are charged a certain way.


  6. Thanks for your honesty. I’m just getting to know you but it sounds like you are a very intelligent, insightful, and self aware individual. These kinds of fellow travelers seem to be few and far between these days, at least in my little corner of this world. I don’t have anything helpful I can offer when it comes to depression other than, most of my family has suffered from it. Mostly on my mom’s side. It can eat you from the inside out and it will, so reaching out is a good thing I think. Hoping the dark begins to break into light very soon.

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    1. I am formally educated, but intelligence is relative, isn’t it? ☺ I truly appreciate your comments and outside of the anonymity I hope to keep, I wanted my blog to be as authentic as possible. It’s always been my belief that the best way to solve a problem is to, first, define the problem. This blog is me defining the problem.
      Thank you. ❤

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  7. Thank you for finding me! Like you, this isn’t the first blog, although I haven’t deleted mine. I keep it around for some reason. I suffer from anxiety too and it sucks so much. Thank you for talking to me.
    Have a wonderful day!

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  8. Hi! I just wanted to say thank you for noticing my new born blog. I’ve read you just landed on a job and will be taking a break. But I’ve got my seat belt buckled. I’m ready, I’ll wait for your return. Wishing you luck on your new venture!

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  9. Finding you thru others. I read this ‘about me’ and I could have written it. Literally, each sentence seemed like something I could say. Completely impressed and will be glad to follow you. Anywhere you might go!

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      1. I have several. I have looked at different sites and put different kinds of blogs on each. My wordpress one is only for light. Some of my others….well, smiling and adjusting halo over horns!

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