Sometimes I Read the Bible…

I know it seems like a contradiction to my life, but sometimes I Read the bible and occasionally something sticks out.

Tonight it is this:

“Keep me safe, O God; in you I take refuge.” – Ps 16:1.

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10 thoughts on “Sometimes I Read the Bible…”

  1. Hey Stephanie,

    It hurts me that you don’t feel you can read the Bible comfortably. Remember that no one should ever take anything that any religious tradition says as gospel truth without examining and analyzing it for themselves first. If it doesn’t align with your values – if some religious book tries to shame you for your natural desire, like Paul in the New Testament – you may have been chosen by Allah to carry out a sacred mission by living your truth in spite of what society insists is right. Some of us have been chosen to defend the underprivileged and vulnerable, all of those whom society sneers at as being “P.C. pets.” Only we know in our hearts what is right and wrong – we can’t EVER look to others as the ultimate arbiter of that, not even the writers of the Bible. After all, note that the Bible also tells its readers that it’s better to remain celibate than to take a spouse (1 Corinthians 7:26, if I’m not mistaken; check all of 1 Corinthians 7 to be sure). Absolute lunacy. If we all took everything the Bible says as gospel truth, humanity would end in a generation. Write me if you want to know more about that.

    The confusing thing is that sometimes we’re called to defend something that even we are not comfortable with. It’s hard to follow our hearts when our hearts are screaming in two different directions. Ultimately, we don’t really know for sure how we are called to act. There is no right answer. Something can be wrong in general, but right for us. Or both right and wrong at the same time. There could be degrees of “wrong”, with celibacy on one end of the spectrum and, say, pedophilia on the other (with most righteous people falling somewhere in between). Sometimes we are called to walk mindfully with something that we believe is wrong, but is an essential part of who we are. I give as an example my desire to date interracially. As a racequeer black woman who had white features until I was 8 years old, I have always felt deeply attracted to white men. I have also always felt that dating white men would be wrong to me since I hit sexual maturity.

    I’m not saying I would never marry a white man. I would just have to feel the right way about it. I’d have to meditate, pray, journal, channel and do other things until my intuition told me how to proceed. I’m also sure that there is nothing wrong with my desire. It’s just something I have to repress, for reasons I don’t fully understand. We’re all learning to fight the flesh and become holier, no matter if we’re gay, lovers of interracial dating, model chasers, or porn stars. It’s not about shaming people or trying to dictate behavior. It’s about living the life we were put on Earth to live. I feel that being gay or transgendered is a gift and a sacred, sacred thing. I was born with a European spirit, so I completely understand a man being born with a woman’s spirit. I believe it is possible for a man to be a woman inside. I have studied this in my priestess practice. When you are born transgendered or transracial, you are a gift to the world, a person who can potentially bridge gaps between the genders and races. An example is your blog.

    And how each of us is asked to walk with our anointing is different. Some of us may be called to activism and sex-positivity. Some of us may be called to monogamy with an average-looking same-sex partner as a way of exploring sexuality in a healthy way. Some of us may be called to make a way for future generations by exploring our kink through meditation, channeling, etc. and sharing our findings. Some of us may be called to all three of these paths throughout the course of our lives, like some saints of God I’ve known.. and at different times. It’s different for everyone, and there are NO rules. You have to explore your psyche and discover what your intuition tells you. That’s why spirituality is so important.

    I have been shamed my entire life for being transracial, by people of all backgrounds. I do believe that if we were living in a different time, I would have been stoned for it. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with it, nor with your transgenderism. It’s a gift. Appreciate it.

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    1. Often, when someone, like yourself, gives me such a though provoking response to something I write, I become awestruck by the wisdom. I believe I am finding my way, it’s w struggle and I’m not sure where I’ll end up on the long run, but I have hope that I’ll come our the other side a much more serene and peaceful person.

      Thank you for your comment and your friendship. 💙

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  2. I am so happy to hear you read the Bible. I believe God speaks to us through it – even though it was written by flawed, imperfect humans, it was devised to teach us more about the reality of God and His presence in our lives. I have found much wisdom in the Bible, not just from a religious perspective but also as it relates to work and talents and money and relationships. God has something to tell you and reading the Bible can help you hear it.

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      1. The Bible calls several things an abomination. In Proverbs it says lying lips are an abomination. I think there is love and kindness in the term – consideration for others, not just ourselves. Maybe try to read it from that perspective.

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  3. I love the Psalms! I recently read Psalm 14 and Luke 4. It was quite the combination. It always surprises me how bold the Devil is when he tells Jesus to jump off the temple..

    Thanks for sharing.

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