When I began this current blog, I had posted that I had previous blogs before. For some reason, however, I have begun to accept myself way more than I used to. And in one of my previous blogs, I had a post about saying the word “cute”, among other things. Well, I was mentioning how “cute” is just not something a straight man would say, and I felt it was an example of the fact that I am innately bisexual with some feminine tendencies. Well, over the past few days, as I began to reveal my inner Stephanie, I have also began to recognize something else I have been saying a lot. I’m not sure when it started – maybe a few weeks ago, although I have said it before – but it is something I used to intentionally suppress. It’s quite similar to my use of the word “cute” actually.
I’m not sure if there is definitive psychology behind the use of certain words as a choice, but I would suspect that women tend to choose words that imbue a sense of feeling, where as men probably choose words that are more concrete. (If there are any psychologists in the house, I would love to hear their opinions on the matter). But I can’t help to assume that this is the case. And since, I have always felt their was a dichotomy to my gender, I can’t help but think that suppressing some of my word choices is not all that healthy. But the positive thing to get out of this, I think, is that I am starting to free my mind a little to use phrases and expressions a little more freely – to express the part of me that is feminine.
And you know what? I’m fucking loving it!
So, what are the things I’m saying and doing?
Well, I have been using “cute” again. I’m also referring to people as “sweet” – like, I’ve been using that term with guys too and it just feels right to use it. For example, I’ve had a couple of make followers compliment me or say something nice to me and I feel completely liberated in calling these gentleman “sweet”. Obviously, I say it to my girlfriends on here too, but that is always easier, I think. But to have a guy say something nice to me and me turn and tell him, “That was sweet of you” just makes me feel happy. I am also using little heart symbols and little flower symbols, simply because I am able to feel a little more girly.
I know ya’ll are probably sick of hearing me go on and on about me accepting my feminine nature, but those of you that are putting up with me, I really appreciate you all “being so sweet”!