Sober: 3 Months

This past Wednesday, I crossed the date that marks 90 days sober for me. I’very been attending AA meetings and working the 12 Steps Program. I’m doing it slowly – in fact, today I met with my sponsor and did the 3rd Step and trying to turn my will over to my Higher Power.

I feel my attitude changing in a lot of ways. I am taking better care of myself – logging my food to be aware of calorie intake, drinking 90 – 120 oz. of water each day, walking strenuously a few times per week and even praying.

Why? Well, because I am seeing how these things seem to work for others. I am doing my best to change my thinking. There are days where I still think of downing a few beers, there are still days that I pander to the idea that I might be “notmal” someday. But I am filling my thoughts and mind with a new way of thinking, because I have a tendency to obsess about things. I want that to change.

But today, I’m “working the program”…

Day 92. – The longest I’ve been without a beer in the past 10 years.20170303_133215.jpg

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69 thoughts on “Sober: 3 Months”

      1. Average. Will pass. It gets this long sober etc… and it’s difficult to get across to people why my life was destroyed. People can make a point of making it difficult. This is just self pity and I am tougher than that. Just working in a racial environment and their exclusiveness or xenophobia is just a shade lower than the privileged inbreeding I got to be educated with. The people I loved most and who protected me died. I got wiped. My medical tratment took more and more…. It is a testament to my family that the 3 of us stood firm. My parents are good. The grudgingly sees the victims one day. They tear to shreds those who love and support us.

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          1. You get these bullies who are such bitches they make their victim look like the aggressor. You would have loved my best mate. He was a queen who could punch the teeth out of any daddy’s boy. Funny too. Linguist and drummer. Alwaya kept his word to his friends. That’s a man.

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  1. SO proud of you! Well done! You rock! That is a huge accomplishment! I hope you know how much that means and it says a lot about what you can do! I believe in you. I am very proud of you and I know anyone who cares about you is too. CONGRATULATIONS keep going forward my friend you can do this. And on those hard days please know, many of us are on your side you are never alone.

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  2. Sincere congratulations, my friend… on both the chip AND the willingness to explore parts of the program that you weren’t necessarily sold on.

    I’m curious, do you think that the push someone gave you recently to define YOUR higher power helped you with this step? I know there has been some resistance to it, and I just wondered if you think it was the actual (re)defining that allowed you to get past what has been a barrier to you previously?

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  3. Beyond words and nothing could express how proud and happy I am for you. This makes my day and I’m so excited you are starting to be good to yourself and that you have found something to believe in. Sending you the hugest hug that can squeeze through the screen and shouting from the top of my lungs. Way to go my dear dear friend. Love you long time princess. ❀

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  4. This is awesome news! Congrats on 90 days of continuous sobriety. You are walking your talk sweetie pie, one day at a time. I am so proud of you, and you should be too. Pat that back and give yourself kudos. Well deserved.

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  5. Your post made me think of the song ‘Sober’ by Kelly Clarkson. It wasn’t one of her hits so you probably never heard of it. She sings ‘Three months and I’m still sober. Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers.’
    The song is in heartbreak context but the struggles are the same.
    I hope you pick your weeds and keep the flowers.

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  6. Why did I not see this until now? OMG OMG!! I am over-the-moon happy for you and so proud of you!!! I KNOW what dedication this takes! You really inspire me. Keep trying to pray…it will come. ((hugs and lots of love))

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  7. since i was gsr of our aa group for 5 years here in my arena once upon a tyme…
    i stopped drinkin in 1997… an well we can’t jest TRY to give it up to the higher power….it is a must do thing…alcohol free is da’ important thing …one minute @ a time…one step @ a time yep!….
    haven’t been to an official meetin’ in a couple of years now…. but is what got me sober! aa werks if ya werk it an believe!….namaste’ 2 ya frum da’ Q in colorado! πŸ™‚

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  8. Congratulations! I am really happy for you! I have been where you (probably) are now and I know how much it took of me to come where I am today and I just wanted to say I am extremely proud of you!

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