Earlier, I posted an update on what’s been going on over the past few days. But I would be lying, if I didn’t say I am filled with so much anxiety, doubt, second-guessing and worrying. Last Sunday, I was craving a beer so bad, I actually got a headache. It was like pressure built up in my brain from the feeling that only a beer could calm me down.
The major thing I’m concerned about is the fact that the job doesn’t pay for the lifestyle I have built (ironic word to use, considering it feels like everything is teetering on the edge). My current expenses are high enough, that the new job won’t cover everything, which means there are quite a few things I’ll need to eliminate or find a way to increase my income. Back when I was unemployed, I was driving for a ride-share and made a little extra money, but it makes me worry about the wear and tear on my car. I know that I will need to eliminate things and work another job, until some debts are cleared up.
Sometimes I really struggle with understanding what I’ll be most happy about. And it makes me want to drink beer.
Today, I am finishing…