The topic I read today for my Beautiful You Journal was the idea that I am not my body. The author discusses the idea that we define ourselves by what we tell ourselves and what others tell us about our bodies. It’s funny that I read this today, almost immediately after watching Marie Osmond on a Nutrisytem commercial say, “My stomach is flatter now than when I was 20!”(I had an excited utterance for her that sounded an awful lot like “Truck Blue, Marie!”). The author was expressing this idea that who we are is much deeper than our exteriors and that we tend to focus our goals on what our “shells” (This is my word, not hers) need – i.e. I need to be skinny, I need to lose weight, I’m not Marie Osmond, etc., etc. And really, we are much deeper than this, we are much more needed in the world around us than the world at our surface. The author mentioned a student of hers that had equated our bodies to a motor vehicle and that they are only used to move us around in life, but they are not what is on the inside. Granted, she expressed we need to take care of our vehicles – like general maintenance – but the focus should be where the driver needs to go and not what the care looks like.
I struggle with this, because sometimes I feel that’s not how society treats us. There are accidents (using the analogy of cars), there are drag races, there are needs of vehicles depending on the terrain me might traverse. So, it’s a tough analogy for me to accept (Granted, I overthink everything, so I need to work on that), but I am working on it. I mentioned last week to someone that I feel like I have not taken care of myself, like I have let myself go because of all the stresses and challenges of life. Sadly, I feel like it’s take a bit of a toll on me, but this is something I do want to change and it’s something I feel like I need to change. My problem is coming up with a game plan – and my biggest struggle is in the motivation.
But I do want to be at a point where I can accept that my body does not define me, completely, that I am much more than my shell.